The big issues is this.... Red has some big time personal issues, and he was having a VERY hard time understanding this is an urbex forum and not a support group. Like I dont mind the members helping red on a bad mental health day, but it was getting to the point of 200 threads in shout box of him crying to himself sometimes, and his paranoia over the vote in process was starting to rattle people around here......... There isnt a day that goes by I dont miss the " old R3d " he was one of my best friends... but the new whiney woe is me 24/7 was too much for me.
i only cry to my therapist now. but if someone asks me, i dont have a problem talking about it.they finally got the right combination of meds to keep me from being a total ass and/or a whiny bitch too lol.its funny, ive had 3 therapists, and they ALL loved my videos and even my crappy pix. they actually tell me to go out and do more exploring, even though its illegal lol
Thank god, things got a little dark there for a while, it was starting to spill out on deggi. this thread is a perfect example of how the passage of time can heal alot
@R3D @Dougo missed seeing your posts here, welcome back!
oh it spilled out everywhere! loli was very self destructive.i quit drinking except for special occasions, which helped. and now they have me on meds that keep me in check. plus 5 years of therapy doesnt hurt
I blame Detroit . I spent years there as an alcoholic addict that thought I was pretty good at hiding it "nah man...thanks but no...weed doesn't do shit for me for me anyways" while sucking down coke while no one was looking, and just being an asshole in general to everyone. I moved away for years, got clean, came back, and went right back to the same shit almost immediately...to the point it almost killed me. Left again, and haven't done anything beyond smoking Marlboros since. That city had an odd effect on me....I miss it, and yet I'm glad I'm not there too. But I do have some damn good memories of NRPH (still have a blanket too!), MCS, Packard, Broderick, Statler, and a not quite abandoned Northville Prison...oops...Looking back on what little I remember from those years, I'm shocked that anyone even tolerated me...Or maybe they were just hoping I'd do something stupid, kill myself in a hilarious way, and they'd have an awesome video, lol. Pretty sure I came close to doing just that in the Statler once... I know I screwed over people without even realizing I was doing it, and most of it I can't even remember any more. I did some really fucking stupid shit back...Found out I'm ADHD last year, which kinda helps explain a lot of it, and being on meds now, I know I'm different. Other people have noted it too. Wish I could have figured it out a whole lot earlier...but better late than never? Damn...I haven't done shit for exploring since like 2004...maybe I need to take a trip back east before someone from my past finds me and shanks my ass...
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